EU referendum

*Trumpets in the distance*

And that ladies and gentlemen is the sound of the UK royally f-ing up.

This morning i woke up to the news that the UK will be leaving the EU with the votes being 52% leave. And that is where my future pretty much looks like this:

                                                                 Woohoo for England.

Now I'm only 15 so I'm not legally allowed to vote but i know that leaving the EU was a bad idea. Since leaving this morning things have already gone downhill very VERY fast. 

• The pound value dropped to a 30 year low
• Our prime minister resigned
• UK likely to lose its AAA credit rating
• Scotland is pushing for independence after it too got screwed over
• £350 million a week will NOT go to funding the NHS like promised.

Fantastic.

Personally, i believed that we should have stayed with the UK and this is a massive downfall. I do not know what will happen in the future with this situation but from what has happened already without it even being 12 i do not know what to expect. In fact, I'm SCARED for my future. At 15 years old i do not know what will happen in my life but now that i know my future might be jeopardised I'm terrified. Waking up this morning and seeing the votes i knew that things would be changing - BIG TIME. The vote would have been a lot different if 16 year olds was eligible for the vote this time as lets be honest, we're the majority of the people who are going to be effected by this vote because its our futures. 

England i must say, we've messed up this time. Not only have we voted leave which was a big mistake, we've turned other countries against us like Scotland and ALL of Scotland voted to stay with the EU. They stayed with Britain in the first place as they were told that this is the way that they would be able to stay in the EU. Oh the betrayal...

The vote to leave was done by people who claimed they wanted to make our country great again. Sound familiar? You know its a bad day when you agree with Donald Trump.

Speaking of which, he is in Scotland right now. Great. 

My heart goes out to the people who voted stay and i apologise for the ones who voted leave and messed up younger generations future. Im sorry that this happened.

To you all, I'm just a Hidden Identity...

World of Work

Its gotten to that point in life where you finally need to decide what you want to be. Although you have a few years left before being thrown headfirst into the world of work, there is pressure on teenagers and young adults to decide what they want to be for the rest of their lives even if they have no idea!

At the age of 15 we are told that when we go to college to do A levels we get to pick 3 subjects (4 at most) which you would like to study and will be the stepping stones of your career and where your life will head. I definitely know this feeling as its currently what i am going through at the moment, I'm going off to a brand new college in a short 4 months and have picked 3 subjects which I'm not even sure will be used to help me in the work place! 

I personally do have some idea of a route that i would like to follow but the fact is that i have no clue how i get there and the stress is already piling up with GCSE's which again we are told will determine the rest of my life and I'm not even 16 yet! AHHH!!

How am i meant to decide my future at this age when i can't even cook! All this pressure has put me into the constant state of looking like this:

So attractive, right?

I do understand that your life has to start somewhere but at the ages of 15/16 we're already given major exams which put so much pressure on us to be perfect, because some much gobbledygook is being pushed into our small brains when some of us can't even tie our goddamn shoe laces!  And then again at 17 and 18, WE CAN'T HANDLE THE PRESSURE PLEASE S.O.S.

What's your opinion on the school education system? I'd love to hear it.

To you all, I'm just a HiddenIdentity...

Summer...

The birds are singing, the sun is out and so is the beautiful wildlife, ahh.. don't you just love summer?..

AHAHA lets get real here, i do not always look forward to summer. And before everyone starts yelling at me let me explain myself.

Summer in the UK is basically 2-4 days of the sun being out which decides after 361 of pure coldness and wet to scorch every single bit of land there is with intense heat - i can't handle it! I'm one of those people who are always cold so its not usual for me to be sweating/melting more than Olaf in front of the fireplace.

I also very much do not care for having to race home in astounding heat which the earth managed to cook up in all those days of winter (basically the rest of the year) and pushed onto the UK, getting in and running up the stairs like a madman to put on shorts and a t-shirt just to be able to get some air! Not to mention my slightly-bigger-than-Texas thighs being stuck to every surface i sit on! Not cool man, not cool. 

Lets not just brush over the fact that i was never graced with the ability to tan, i was graced with the ability to sprout freckles on my nose and BURN as if Satan had just breathed on me. *sigh* why does summer hate me?! The fact that the 2-4 days had to be placed in the middle of my exam period makes me want to spontaneously combust! 

I know I know, i keep complaining but i do see that there is some good points to summer such as the days being brighter for longer, getting to go out more and although i complained about it, i don't mind a little more heat than usual. Summer is lovely and i understand that because i feel it to but CALLING ALL BEES AND WASPS PLEASE STAY 1000 MILES AWAY FROM ME PLEASE THANK YOU VERY MUCH SUCH APPRECIATED. 

I hope everyone enjoys their summer, get tans (or burn like me - ouch!) and go out to some amazing places in the sun. To everyone who is taking exams right now in this heat, i wish you all good luck :)

HELLO EVERYONE, I AM BACK. As I said above i am currently taking my exams which means my life is stoked up with revision which means i am very limited with when i can write but i shall try to write some more in future. See you soon :)

To you all, I'm just a Hidden Identity...

Reality Check...

Ahhh the christmas countdown, chocolate, presents, family... NO.

Forget all that jazz for a moment as I'm going to slap you with a bit of reality right now, you ready? EXAMS. MOCKS. STRESS - ARGH! 

Ok, so with christmas round the corner it is pretty hectic for most people with thanksgiving (If you happen to be American) or christmas shopping before it turns to a last minute marathon a few days before but for me and many others my age its these dreaded exams which i hear constantly 'These aren't the real ones so there is nothing to worry about' or 'even if you get 0 it wont matter this is just preparation' but then why do i feel as if i just got thrown into a deep pit of lava mixed with stress, anxiety and panic?! 

I definitely know I'm not alone in the fact that these mocks can seriously be a wake up call for what is about to happen in a matter of months *sigh* time to sell my soul to the revision gods as my teacher would say. But thing is, if i can revise a pile of work the size of Mt. Everest and still get a bad mark, how am i going to feel in May when theres even more shoved in there?! Need... Help... Drowning in work... 

My advice though for others like me who are struggling with mocks is to not over-do it which is what i am guilty of for sure. When revising yes it is necessary to get a mark for that self achievement but don't miss out on the things that you might not be able to when the REAL thing kicks in a few months after christmas. So yes revise, yes study, yes learn new things but don't forget to relax because soon it will be too late. 

Good luck everyone who is doing their mocks right now. Revise, don't over-do it and have a bit of fun.

Hello Everyone! Wow, i haven't posted since September but like this post is talking about, its been filled with revision and some fun for these mocks i am currently swimming in. I will hopefully get back into the swing of it because it is good to be back for sure. Ok guys,

To you all, I am just a HiddenIdentity...

This is personal...

Wow it has been awhile!

I wanted to make this blog a little more personal. Even though this is an anonymous blog (which is freaking difficult some times) i feel like the readers should know more about me and know if they have the same problems, that they are not alone.

To start off, i have mild anxiety. As common as it may seem it is scary none the less and at times id rather talk to a wall than go outside and socialise, ill freak out and over think yet its completely out of my control. FYI, if you tell me to calm down and stop worrying... Run for your life because when i get my breath back from panicking i may kill you.

Its horrible for anyone my age or even older or younger to have anxiety. In all honesty, its changed my life! I cant help that i overthink and panic whenever i sense something bad, its not my fault! It happens in school, at home, at days out... everywhere i go i manage to find something to internally freak out about until i have a panic attack. This is not the life i want to live!

The one thing i will never forget is the way it feels... The way my chest feels like its collapsing and i cant breathe, my mind goes cloudy and i then heighten the panic about not knowing whats going on. When i have to drag my hyperventilating body to where ever my mum is so she can calm me down is terrifying for any mum to have to watch. Im sorry to my mum that i do that to her.

For anyone who has any problems - it does not have to be anxiety - do not bottle up these emotions from the people you care about because once you do, everything becomes a whole lot scarier. Be open with your issues, if not, you can be ensured i am always here to talk to you if there is anything you need to express.

Take care of yourselves :)

To you all, i am just a Hidden Identity...

THEY'RE EVEN ON THIS BLOG!

Ever just rack your brain for a blog idea? Its so frustrating!

ANYWHO... I thought id post another rant for you on a much spoken about topic recently...

FREAKING MINIONS.

Now these lovable but very freaky little yellow nuggets are what has sparked mixed reactions from the public in these last few months following the release of Despicable Me 2. THEY ARE EVERYWHERE!

Minions are like marmite, you either love it or want to stab it with a knife - too far? Their cute but annoying antics can somewhat drive people to insanity. Actually, I occasionally think their sizes remind me of a bag of Wotsits and imagine the people who are annoyed by them munching through a bag of yellow crisps with one eye and a bit of hair - OH THE HORROR.

Have you seen some products that can now be bought with their corrupting faces on?! 

• Paper towels
• Clothes
• Toothbrushes
• Tissues
• Phone Cases (I own one... sorry not sorry)

And many more.

Its getting a little out of hand and the people of the social media world have picked up on this and have lit a spark of rage. These tiny popcorn kernels are taking over the world! Hide yourself, your family, pets and goldfish because minions are everywhere!

 THIS IS THE FACE OF DESTRUCTION. 

Minions quit being so funny yet so creepily overpowering of the earth

Sincerely, Everyone.

WELL THATS IT FROM ME I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS POST. 

Whats your opinion on these little yellow monsters of cuteness?

To you all, I am just a Hidden Identity... 

Mental Illness

Ok now this blog is going to be a sort of rant as i saw something on my social media (when do i do anything else but this?!) which made me want to punch a wall! It is this post from the Facebook page 'Tumblr.' I am not a user of Tumblr as i can not grasp the concept of how to use it but i do love seeing pictures of things that happen on there, apart from when it looks like this....

As a girl with anxiety i do not find this at all hilarious or want one for myself. I do not understand how it is funny to put something on social media about a mental illness. I am outraged that it has got to the point where it is acceptable to take a mental illness and talk so freely about it or change lyrics to it onto something that people would wear in public. Anyone who feels that freely about their anxiety, i am seriously doubting you. 

I had to do a bit more research into this before i actually posted this in case it was indeed just another Tumblr post where the picture has been editted. But NO. This is a true and real shirt that can be purchased online from various places in sizes and colours. URGH IT MAKES ME SO MAD!

No matter how many times i see this picture it makes me want to let out my scream that I'm constantly doing internally at this.

Mental illness is no joke and it can not be helped, having anxiety really sucks and affects my daily life, but it does not mean i should put it on a shirt - even as a joke - just to make myself feel better or make it seem less real as a joke. 

Im very sorry to say this but if you own this shirt, i am disappointed...

To you all, i am just a Hidden Identity